Long Time...

Dang, it's been a long time since I last blogged. It's been over four months. I guess it's because I haven't had the mental space to add one more thing tomy "To Do" list. Well, it sure feels good to be bizzack! Let's see I'm still going to my group therapy and I am still questioning it's effectiveness. But I'm always question the point of stuff, so that's not new, nope not at all. Dang, I am really glad that I am writing. It feels like I moved away and finally mustered up the time to come visit home. Sht, I guess this is therapy too. Lawd knows I have more than enough ways that I try to keep my azz sane. With a mind that is all over the place like mine, you HAVE to get creative. So let's see, where should I start?...

Well I just finished reading a hood novel and actually tried to work my way into a second one and realized that the sht all starts sounding the same. So I think I might hang that up. I'm in the process of trying to pursue some professional sht, so I guess that's why I am clamoring to get some hood back in me. I love the hood in me actually. I think that knowledge and street sht are a nasty combo, so I embrace it...well sometimes. Nothing better then being able to turn that sht off by simply closing the book.

Alot of people have been on my mind too. Nobody good, just people who aren't sht, whom I wish were. You know y'own have no frens when you thinkin about the people who did you dirty. Well I aint mad. Fck it and Fck'em. Next...

I been thinkin bout pickin up and just blowin this camp...I mean I wanna go and see what's good somewhere else. I feel like my mind is detoxing, trying to figure out and sort out the good from the bad, the needed from the wanted. It's a little tumultuous, but it's all for the better. Oh! I'm volunteering. Nothing big, just cleaning parks and baking cookies for families of sick children who are housed in Bmore waiting treatment of their young. Funny thing about it is, I don't feel all that good about it. Honestly, I have yet to volunteer and do something that has made me feel good inside. But I just look at it as a work in progress. None-the-less , someone is benefiting from my confusion.

Well, it's good to be back. I don't know when I'll blog again, but hopefully sooner than later.

Peace out...and all that sht.