Checkin' in...

Umm, I feel nauseous.

There is this overwhelming feeling for me to regurgitate everything that's in me.
Maybe it would be symbolic. A way for me getting rid of all the sht I've "eaten" these last couple of years.

I want to go home and crawl in the bed.

I'm in yet another fcked up situation, where everyone is looking at me like, "what's your problem sister, who the fck are you to have standards".

I really want to throw up.

Have I asked for too much from the World?

This is why people just settle for that bundle of low self-esteem, because having self-esteem is too much work. It's like a promise to make yourself a fighter for the rest of your life.

I always meet people who proclaim to be completely clueless to their actions. And when I say people, I mean people from work, associates, family, etc. But then when I'm demanding, I get nothing in return.

Ugh! I'm so stressed. I swear, I just want to be happy or some equivalent!!!!!

I'm honestly am starting to believe that I wasn't placed on this Earth to be happy. I'm here just to be. I've always thought it, but now I'm starting to believe it.

I'm not a beneficiary in this lifetime...