Happiness...
Maybe I'm biased or coming from some "insecure" spot in my lil' brain. But to me it seems like people really aren't happy for people the way they should be. Now maybe I'm wrong, maybe my expectations are too high. And I'll admit, I expect alot from people. Well let me rephrase, I expect alot from people who are claiming certain positions, such as "friends", "family", and even "associates". These are people that are apart of my circle...well one of the rings in my circle.
It's like when you present "good" news to people, people that I've run into don't seem that concerned. It's like, congrats, but whatever cause it's not me. Now this could all be in my head, but I doubt it. It just makes me want to keep all my happiness to myself, cause no one wants to hear it. Hey, and the fake "I'm happy for you" can be left behind. I definitely don't crave or desire insincerity. So whatever.
Are people that sad that they can't be happy for other people? Or am I too reliant upon others sharing my happiness?
Either way Imma shave down my expectations down to the bone, so when I get that dry ass shit, I'll be like "oh, okay" instead of "you miserable biatch"! LMAO!
Hmpf, when I think about it, how can someone be happy for you if they're not happy themselves! Shit, I know when I was a miserable youth, I wasn't happy for a motherfucka. LMAO! Dag, Ima crackin' myself up today.
Anyway...I don't know how to conclude this cause it's so based upon MY perception of people's reaction. And although I believe that I am Queen of Inuition, I might have it all messed up.
I don't know.
Okay...I've conjured up a conclusion...
I wish happiness for all of those who I thought weren't happy for me!
:)
I like the way that sounds, and I truely mean it.
I do.
posted by Retrospect @ 9:49 AM
5 Comments:
LOL! You know what! It's just like when you have exciting news and you all hyped and shit and you tell someone who's close to you and they are like "oh ok"! In ya head you're like wtf? Why aren't you as happy as I am! It's been said that you should have ZERO expectations period that way ya ass wont be sitting around writing/thinking blogs like this LOL!
ZERO expectations...how sad. If I had that I guess I wouldn't be winning about how nobody wanna play in my happy pool.
But hey ya gotta do what you gotta do! ZERO it is!
Are people that sad that they can't be happy for other people? Sometimes, yes. When people give you that dry response, or the fake response, or the straight up "da hell you want, a cookie" response, they are responding from a place of hurt and sadness and sometimes loneliness (case in point, some biyatches I thought would be happy when I got engaged and married were on some other stuff, and yeah I cried and was like how could they react that way like some hurt kindergardener and shyt) - ok, what was I saying...
Oh yeah...they're speaking from a place of hurt so no, they can't reach beyond that to be truly happy for you. So you whisper a lil prayer for them and keep it movin. I ain't gon play down my happiness or stop sharing good news cuz you got issues. Cuz them YOUR issues, not mine!
Especially when them fukkers knew your relationship pain, and all your struggles, and then when you finally find somebody to treat you right and love you the way (even they claimed) you deserved to be loved, they gon be on some ole da hell you want from me, a cookie type shyt. FUK THEM!
LOL@ NYM, whoa!
But I'm feeling you! And that marriage thing out here, gets alot of people. For some reason it's hard for women to be hapy for another woman being happy and gettin married. (I gotta story for that one, whew) Anyway, as I was mentioning before I don't like disappointment, so I just keep it to myself. Boo hoo. I recently said that I can't be around unhappy people, they dangerous to my well being and I don't trust them. So I'm distant to a few people because of that. So Imma have to stick to Durt's caffeine free-ZERO.
Sigh, so sad. So sad...
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