Black and White...

CNN advertised for a special they'll have on tonight about places that were known to "Blacks" as "before sundown" towns. You know...places where yo' black azz better be gone befo' sundown. As you know, I believe that racism is played the FUCK OUT!!! And I really mean that shit. But it's here so it is what it is!!!

Today on the elevator, a little weird W dude got on the elevator with Tweety and I and we noticed that he stood very close to the door. His fukin' nose was probably touchin' that shit. And he pressed on the 1st floor button like a million times. How sad that I can't just charge him to the crazy fuk pile and keep it movin'. But because he's a W, I have to wonder if it was some Black/White thing.

Often the Ws do strange things that makes me wonder whether or not its racially motivated. It's sad, but I'm at a point in life where I've seen so much bullsht on the W front that I often am on guard when dealing with them. I feel bad, but own truss 'em. Probably the same way they don't trust me/us.

I feel forced to play by their rules, on their turf, against their players. I don't feel apart of their society. I'm feeling Ralph Ellison's Invisible Man. And as a Black Woman, I definitely feel it. Because Number 1 women are invisble to the WORLD, and number 2 being Black just takes the damn cake. We have to make ourselves seen and heard, always having to overachieve to do it.

This day in time, I shouldn't feel like I'm always fighting some invisible war just because my skin is brown. But I do. I feel like Ws live in another world on the same planet. Them never understanding us, and us never understanding how it feels to be them.

It's fuked up. Cause as a naive young woman I thought there was one race, the human race. And as much as I still want to continue my world peace campaign, I've grown to realize that that shit aint true, at least not today.

None-the-less I must journey on as a Black woman, in a world that seems to be painted W. But I realize that the forces against me are fear-based and knowing that alone confirms MY greatness.

Ewww...I'm sounding like one of those damn people that I don't like... but shit it is what it is...

POWER TO THE PEOPLE

"You can't seperate peace from freedom, because no one can be at peace unless he has his freedom"

-X