Universal Law...

Okay. I'm really starting to think that the Universe isn't giving me a chance to shine. I feel like so many doors are being closed for me and I truely don't know what to do about it. They say that when one door is closed, another is opened, but I know that I'm having some patience issues.

I am constant trying to improve myself and improve my quality of life. And while one thing appears to be going to shts, I try to create beauty elsewhere. And I've been accumilating sht for awhile so I have been plenty busy with beautifying. The object of my current affection is my home, a house that is painted more colors than the fckn rainbow, lol. But hmpf, you need a lil' color sometimes. I am almost finished the 2nd floor, a project that has taken several weeks, to add perspective. FINALLY, it is becoming a home, a place I can be proud of versus a place that I have to explain.

But none the less, now that my project is practically finished, does this mean that my span of fcked-upness is about to be over too?! I'm not rushing anything, but I'm curious because life is funny that way. Remember when I got my lotus flower tattoo, which I said symbolized me coming up from da mudd and entering a new beginning. Well...'bout two weeks after that, my fcking world flipped upside down. So yeah, I was in store for a new beginning, but not hardly what I had in mind, lol.

I understand that the Universe has it's Law and we are subjected to it. So I just move forward in hopes of being more intune with it and more understanding, because with those things in hand, the "bad" isn't so bad and the "good" is much greater.