Much Required...

It seems like every time I stand up and fight for my individual rights, pursue my goals, or take a stand, it all just blows up in my face.

I can't help it, I'm a principle person. Especially in the occupation field. I consider myself a person who is always up for doing my best, especially when I'm being relied on. In the work world I can't and don't take much sht, and why should I.

I now think that if I had less pride, less self worth, less ambition, I would be alot further along. To me, those 3 things have held me back and placed me in such odd situations.

I pray that all of my experiences make sense to me one day. And I always dreamt of speaking to the youth or other individuals who feel like giving up and telling my story. But telling it with a pot of gold at the end. Telling them they hey, if I did it, then they could too.

But I don't have any gold...yet.

I just keep getting the biggest wad of "hard dck and bubble gum".

I mean...I already know that I'm going to be a success, but not without strife. Strife that I once deemed unfair. Now I just consider it as apart of my genetic makeup.

Man, I'm just plain ol' tired. That's all.

I have picked up this quote that is now so dear to me now..."To whom much is given, much is required".

Because I feel that life is requiring SO much of me, I simultaneously believe that much is and will be given. That belief is solely supported by hope, which isn't too bad, because without that what do you have anyway...