Jelly...
I've never really considered myself the jealous type, probably because I haven't really cared enough about anyone I've dated to even be worried. I've always had the whole icicle heart thing going on. Of course this was completely annoying to anyone who liked me. But I couldn't help it.
Now that I think about it, I prided myself on being the non-jealous type. I thought it added to my confidence, security, self-image...just my whole fckin swagger. Lol.
But little did I know I was over due.
Tweet found a Black (lol) at her job to trip with. Coincidently she's bi, but has a boyfriend. Boo. Pre-bi info, I knew somethin wasn't right. Once people know you gay, there is bound to be one to give you extraness.
So anyway, it was just announced that she was invited to the Super Bowl Party at our cousin's house. When the news came through the phone and in my ear, I had this DA FUKK come over me. It was terribly involuntary, but hey. Anyhoo, she was like yeah, I invited her and she's coming. I'm thinking, who the fck said she can come. I don't wanna be 'round no body that's given you gums and teeth all day.
Oh! And there was the call from a lunch gatherin with her and I'm like, WAIT A DAMN MINUTE.
So does this count as an act of relationship jealousy or it is it a normal watchin of thou property. Lol.
I don't like the feelin, cause I don't hide mine easily.
I guess I just need to wait until I meet her face to face. I'm a better judge of character that way.
And this isn't even about me mistrustin Tweet. It's just about women. Especially curious women. Own truss'em. Nope. Not me. Cause with them it's about the chase, not the catch. And dayum, own wanna dig in Tweet's sht bout no other woman. Cause if I even get a hint that some sht aint right bout her. Imma light some sht up for Tweet not recognizin'!!!!
And I don't wanna do that. It's so out of my character. I like the calm me.
I guess we'll see what's what. But I don't even like the thought of it in the first place.
Maybe I'm overreacting.
Yeah that's it.
Right?
posted by Retrospect @ 1:59 PM
5 Comments:
*sigh* I too pride myself on being the non-jelly type only because who got time for all that? I've had several lesbian friends and the thing they holler the most is they HATE bi women! LOL! It's like they curious but not curious enough to be full fledge instead they just want to test the wardas and have "options". What's up with that? Ok so Tweet told you ole girl was bi w/ a boyfriend? I mean Tweet couldda just left it at ok dis my homegirl from work, right? Or am I reading too much into it? *hmmm*
Ok so you gonna be at the supabowl tryna figga out da deal while urbody else enjoying the game? That sucks k!
No, you're not overreacting. ALL feelings are good, in that we should express them. Not hold them in. So don't feel weird cuz you slightly feeling jealous.
You should also feel good that you're planning to handle the situation well, and that is to wait until you meet girl face to face and see for yourself if there's reason for a scrap. LOL Don't jump to any conclusions.
And last, I too am annoyed by the Tweets and the CBs missing the "more than friend attention." If you ask me, some attention is obvious, but hey, they will say they didn't know, they didn't see, and you have to believe that. If you learn that girlfriend might be interested, just point the signs out to Tweets so she knows how to recognize them in the future. Don't light her up cuz she missed them! LOL Give her this first time to be oblivious, but after you school her and she misses it again....
LOL
(Durt)I don't know what it is about'em but its corny, especially when you grown, still playin peek-a-boo and sht. I personally don't like the attention. I don't like indirectness on a frequent basis. But many of my fellow lesbos do, so more powa to'em. Tweet reports back on work happenings and later on after some weeks/months the bi-ness came up. But I feel you.
I might have to have a sip so I can settle my nerves...lol.
(Momma)You should be a marriage counsela or somethin, lol. Imma stay cool doe.
I guess people accidently on purpose ignore thangs, cause the person is cool, but they just got some other stuff going on. I myself am guilty of it too, unfortunately. Tweet know what's up. And I think she has good enough sense not to invite someone into my/her space if sht aint right.
Woo siii...
LOL @ accidentally on purpose ignore
Well said!
My only fear is that 'ole girl will come into your/tweet space and act like its her/your/tweet space LOL. That would be unpretty k. I mean because they comfy at work doesn't mean that shyt is kosha at home right? I dunno, it's tough because if she showing gums & teef *priceless* @ work I'm sure she gone be showin 'em at supabowl k. So just breeve and count to ten before you jump on her then call me cuz I'mma need a blow by blow! Thanks! LOL
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